When Chae-yeon was in sixth
grade.
Su-yeon, who had been saving
the child support money that Chang-seok sent every month, realized
that the funds were running low.
‘I must provide for
Chae-yeon myself.’
Determined to care for her
lovely daughter, Su-yeon hurriedly found a job and carried out her
work diligently.
Even though her appearance had
become gaunt due to her reclusive lifestyle, her beauty remained
intact. Because of this, her male colleagues frequently confessed
their feelings to her.
"I'm sorry, but I'm not
interested in dating."
To Su-yeon, who had been hurt
by a man before, their confessions were nauseating.
To her, men were like
dangerous weapons that could harm her at any moment.
She harshly rejected the
persistent advances of the men and maintained good relationships with
her female colleagues.
As she gradually became
recognized at her workplace and got used to her social life...
"Please, won't you go out
with me?"
A man from another department
confessed to Su-yeon. Given her reputation in the company as a 'woman
with a fortified wall,' it had been quite a while since she received
such a confession.
But whether it had been a long
time or not, the result was the same. Su-yeon fiercely rebuffed Jung
Dong-hoon, the man who confessed, and turned her back.
‘I don't need men...’
She believed that as long as
she had her daughter, she could live alone. She vowed never to be
swayed or hurt by a man again. But...
Su-yeon's resolve began to
waver because of one man.
"Su-yeon, have this while
you work."
That man was none other than
Jung Dong-hoon, who had confessed to her. Despite years passing, his
affection for her hadn't faded. No matter how firmly Su-yeon rejected
him, he approached her kindly out of genuine love.
‘What is with this man...’
His constant and kind approach
started to soften the thorns around Su-yeon's heart.
As Su-yeon had occasional
meals with Dong-hoon, she gradually began to fall for his gentle
demeanor.
'Dong-hoon...'
Su-yeon realized that she had
fallen in love with Dong-hoon. His face constantly appeared in her
mind.
Just as Dong-hoon always
watched over her, at some point, Su-yeon found herself following his
every move with her eyes.
'I promised myself I wouldn't
fall in love again.'
She resented her
uncontrollable heart. She didn't want to experience the same pain
ever again, so why had she let herself feel this way?
Even while Su-yeon was
undecided, Dong-hoon's affections did not falter. Believing that
Su-yeon had opened her heart to him to some extent, he proposed to
her without hesitation.
"I will look only at you
for the rest of my life. So please, won't you marry me?"
"You know that I have
been divorced before. And I have a daughter who's already in middle
school."
"I know. If it's to be
with you, Su-yeon, I can accept all of that.“
Why did he love her so deeply?
A divorced woman. To put it bluntly, she considered herself
second-hand. Why would Dong-hoon...
Feeling a bit dizzy, Su-yeon
momentarily swayed and placed a hand on her head. She let out a
shallow sigh and replied,
"Please give me some time
to think."
Remarriage... She couldn't
hide this serious situation from Chae-yeon.
After much deliberation,
Su-yeon decided to share her honest feelings with her daughter and
asked for her thoughts on the remarriage.
"It's a relief that you
found someone good, Mom. I'm okay, so do whatever you want."
"Chae-yeon, but..."
"You've worked hard
taking care of me, Mom. So now, hold on to your own happiness, okay?"
Empowered by her daughter's
support, Su-yeon decided to remarry.
Chae-yeon hoped that her mom,
after remarrying, would regain the brightness she once had.
She believed that Su-yeon, who
had quit her job to focus on being a housewife, would call with
excitement each time it was time to go home.
"Honey, I'm home~"
"Welcome. I've prepared
dinner, so please help yourself."
However, contrary to
expectations, there was no display of affection from Su-yeon after
the remarriage.
Far from being gentle, her
attitude was only cold.
Su-yeon carried out her duties
as a wife—or rather, as a housewife—obligatorily and only
received Dong-hoon's love passively.
'I must never reveal my true
feelings.'
Once was enough for being
abandoned by a man she loved.
Though she wanted to return
her husband’s kiss with equal passion or even more, she feared
hearing the same words her ex-husband had said: that he was fed up.
'I have to hide my feelings of
love until the end.'
Fearing that her half-hearted
approach might reveal her true feelings to her husband, Su-yeon
guarded her love with thorns, maintaining her cold attitude to
prevent Dong-hoon from noticing.
'Mom...'
Chae-yeon knew her mother's
approach was wrong, but she also understood where it stemmed from, so
she couldn't criticize her carelessly.
Moreover…
"I'm sorry, honey. I’ll
do better from now on."
Despite Su-yeon's mistaken
attitude, the family's harmony was maintained thanks to Dong-hoon's
constant consideration.
Sometimes, it felt to
Chae-yeon like they had returned to the household before the divorce,
which led her to mistakenly think her mom’s approach was correct.
However, that foolish thought
was shattered by the time Chae-yeon reached her second year of high
school.
"Why can't you say it? Is
it that hard to say you like me? To say you love me?"
Dong-hoon, drunk and full of
pent-up frustration, finally voiced his feelings to his wife. It had
already been three years since their remarriage.
Although he believed that
loving her would eventually melt her cold demeanor, as Su-yeon
continued to keep her distance, he grew anxious.
"I know you were deeply
hurt by your ex-husband. But isn't it time to open your heart?"
Su-yeon’s breathing became
labored at her husband’s plea. Open her heart, tell him she loves
him—that was directly tied to her trauma, and it felt like she
couldn’t breathe as she clutched at her chest.
'Please, don't do this...'
If she granted Dong-hoon's
request but ended up abandoned again, she would truly become a wreck,
unable even to return to society.
It was a harmony she had
barely achieved; she couldn't let one wrong decision destroy it all.
"You seem very drunk. You
should go in and rest."
Su-yeon, avoiding his gaze,
tried to leave quickly, but Dong-hoon grabbed her wrist, stopping her
from escaping.
"Su-yeon, please... just
once, tell me you love me."
"Stop it! You even gave
me the marriage you so desperately wanted. So what more do you want?”
“I’m just really
struggling… I can’t be sure if you truly love me…”
Su-yeon looked like she was on
the brink of tears.
‘My husband is having such a
hard time, is it right for me to finally show my true feelings?’
She bit her lower lip hard and
clenched her fists, trembling. She wanted to embrace him and comfort
him as he knelt and pleaded for her love.
“I, I…”
‘Yes, let’s put everything
down and be honest. Maybe it was just Chang-seok who was particularly
trash…’
She stroked her husband’s
bowed head, ready to reveal the love she had hidden for years.
“I lov—”
But then.
A sudden flash of her past
life as a wreck, desperately missing her husband who left her, and
showing a pathetic side to her daughter—that halted Su-yeon from
expressing her true feelings.
“I lo…”
Her lips opened, and her voice
came out, but saying ‘I love you’ was strangely impossible. Every
time she tried to utter those words, her chest tightened, and the
lack of oxygen made her consciousness fade.
“Sweetheart?”
Noticing something wrong with
his wife, Dong-hoon reached out to touch her sweaty, trembling face,
worriedly.
Thwack.
Su-yeon harshly pushed away
Dong-hoon's hand and hurriedly covered her eyes. Turning her back to
him so he couldn't see, she forced out her words in a cold tone.
"If you hate me like
this, then just divorce me... I'll do it whenever you want."
She said this knowing
Dong-hoon, who loved her, would never choose divorce.
As expected, Dong-hoon said he
wouldn’t do this again and stepped out to get some fresh air, while
Su-yeon, feeling like she might collapse any moment, stumbled to her
room.
After their parents' argument
ended.
Chae-yeon, who had heard
everything from her room, immediately went to her mother as soon as
she heard her father leave.
Creak—
The atmosphere was chilling.
The blanket covering Su-yeon kept trembling.
Seeing this, Chae-yeon
realized her mother was also suffering and spoke in a sad voice.
"Mom, please stop.. You
know stepdad would never abandon you, even if you show your feelings.
So please.."
"For the past few years,
Mom has managed to maintain a happy family without revealing her true
feelings.. Dad gives love, and mom receives it. If mom fully accepts
Dad's love, our family can stay together."
Su-yeon's mistaken belief came
through in her tearful voice. As Chae-yeon gazed at her mother's
pitiful figure with sorrowful eyes.
Su-yeon's words continued.
"Chae-yeon, you'll
understand one day when you find someone you love. You'll realize
just how terrifying it is to be abandoned by the person you could
devote your life to."
With these heartfelt words,
their brief conversation came to an end. However, Su-yeon's sincere
remarks left a deep impression on Chae-yeon's heart.
One day, when Chae-yeon became
a college student.
"If it's okay with you...
would you go out with me?"
She met her first love, Kim
Si-hyun.