To be honest, deciding to start the stream today wasn't exactly easy.

But my goals are more important than my shame or embarrassment.

'I can't give up over something like this.'

And yesterday, I was kind of a mess mentally, which made me stutter a bit too.

Still, today I'm back with the mindset of the top-ranked streamer who can perfectly control her emotions.

"Hello~!"

As soon as the stream starts and people flood in, I sit comfortably in front of the computer and speak.

One of the perks of PantheonTV integration: just install the PantheonTV app on your computer, sit and stream, and it automatically sets up like a cam stream.

• Dohee~

• ????

• What is this, why are you here

• ?

• Didn't you quit?

• Wow

• Why is she fine? lol

"Hmm? What are you talking about? Why would I quit..."

Why are these punks spouting nonsense right off the bat? Was yesterday's incident really serious enough to quit over?

'Well... maybe it actually was?'

Now that I think about it, not only were my genitals exposed, I had an orgasm, and even my address got leaked. A normal girl would probably have quit streaming and be trembling in tears at home right now. I did think that way for a moment yesterday too...

Yeah, a normal girl might have done that.

'But I'm different~!'

• Why is this chick fine???

• Girl, you need to check the forums lol

• Are you really okay?

• Wow... her mental strength is no joke

• Knew she was crazy since she said she was aiming for the top

• So you're not quitting? lol Pantheon fans are dead meat

• Seriously, Pantheon fans are so good at blowing things out of proportion

"Ahem... well, stuff like that happens. You can't live your life worrying about every little thing, right? Uh... but people keep bringing up the community. What happened?"

There's been this strange sense of discomfort in the chat for a while.

I thought they'd either make fun of yesterday's incident or awkwardly pretend not to know, but something feels different.

Like something else happened outside of the stream that I don't know about.

Reading the scrolling chat, I see some unfamiliar terms.

"Top… encouragement? Gallery? Ascension (masturbation)... what? What are you guys talking about?"

• Gasp

• Gasp

• Shhh, streamer didn’t see that

• Uh... don’t worry about it hehe

• NGL NGL

• Let’s move on~

• No weird community talk, pleaseeeee

"Is that, uh, the Top Climbing Support Gallery or something? Are you talking about that one?"

I've seen the name a few times while looking things up. It’s one of the few places where guild info isn’t tightly controlled.

• No mentions no mentions no mentions

• Shout-out to TopEncouragementGallery lol Pantheon fans get out!

• Don’t give attention to trolls

• Pantheon fans get out of the room!

• Everyone at the TopEncouragementGallery supports Ms. Lee Dohee's stream~

• Let’s just ban all the community talk, okay?

"Ah... hmm..."

Honestly, it’s been bothering me a bit. Yesterday's drama could explain the attention, sure, but that was then. This isn’t even a peak time slot, it’s 11 a.m. and already nearly 30,000 people are here.

That’s odd.

And I don’t want my stream to be swayed by community drama or popularity spikes.

If anything, I'm the one who should be guiding and enlightening them, not being tossed around like a plaything.

Even if that means losing viewers or donations, I need to cut off rotten branches.

Most of all, it pisses me off when they talk amongst themselves using jargon I don't understand, while I’m talking.

"That's enough. Any talk about communities will be banned from now on."

I kind of already guessed what might've happened, but mentioning that place will just excite them and attract trolls.

I edit the admin settings and set it to auto-ban anyone who talks about communities for one day.

• Byeee~

• Whoa~

• Good good

• Nooo!! Sorry!

• Mercy~

• Wow.... everyone's getting nuked

• TopEncouragementGallery lunatics, cut cut cut (message deleted)

• Even he got cut lol

• That's more like it~

I wanted to start off on a good note, but these forum trolls kind of killed the vibe.

Well, if it’s come to this, might as well go serious.

"Everyone, forget the forums. That’s not what matters right now. There’s something I want to tell you all, and that’s why I started the stream so early."

• ??

• What is it

• What's so important?

• Hmm?

• ?

• Wait, are you actually quitting?

• No, Dohee, please don’t go.....

• No way....

• Gasp

It’s something I wanted to say yesterday but was too overwhelmed to bring up. Last night, while processing everything, I realized I needed to say this out loud.

"I'm going to climb the Tower."

• ???

• That’s random?

• Uh... aren't you already doing that?

• ?

• ??

• Phew, at least she’s not quitting...

It might sound out of nowhere, but with so many viewers here and the forum drama still fresh, now's the perfect time to shift the topic.

"I have more resolve than you think. Things like yesterday might happen again, and there might be more scandals. But I don’t care about that. As you all know, being a woman doesn’t earn you any favors from the Tower. It doesn’t matter. Whether I end up naked, harassed, or even f*cked, I don’t care. No matter what happens, or what I have to do, I’m going to climb that Tower."

• Damn

• The f*cking part though

• Then let's f*ck

• Selling your body to climb the Tower?? Damn

• She’s building her dark past live on stream lol

• Umm...

"Shh! No matter what anyone says, I will climb to the top. It might be a little early to say this, but I will become a player headed for the final floor. Watch me."

• Uh...

• That face and body saying that... doesn’t quite fit

• Ooh... clap clap clap clap clap!

• Let’s just go with it, guys lol

• Top Tower player (weak spot: butt)

• Ooh... kinda badass though?

• ?

• lolololol

• Yeah yeah, go you

• Go Dohee!

There are still trolls and mockers, but there are also people who genuinely support me.

But there's no need to curse at the trolls or haters. Honestly, if a girl like me suddenly claimed to be heading for the top of the Tower, I'd be skeptical too.

"It’s okay even if none of you believe me. I’ll keep going after my goal, and no matter what happens, that goal won't change."

A sharp, confident gaze.

Words spoken smoothly, like I’ve practiced them a hundred or a thousand times.

Words filled with conviction. They carry through the monitor to the people watching.

• Oh.....

• Isn't she acting totally different from yesterday....

• You're so cool, unnie~!

• Hmm...

• Is it really that serious?

Whew...

Some people won’t believe me, and that’s fine. Now then, time to get down to business.

"Do you know what the hardest part of climbing the Tower solo is?"

• ????

• Why has this chick been acting weird all morning?

• What is she talking about

• Solo climbing is hard, sure

• Finding party members?

• Aren't you joining a guild?

"Hmmm..."

I frown and shake my head as if that's not the answer I'm looking for, and the impatient viewers start getting restless.

• ???

• Power struggle on

• Just say it, dammit

• What is it then

• That way of talking...

• ?

And then,

[Beep~]

[User "DoheeTunaSoYummy" has donated ₩100,000]
You had donations on? The virgin donation is already gone!

• ???

• When did she enable donations

• Get! lol

• ?

• Donations?

Ahhh... Finally, what I was waiting for.

'You clueless bastards...'

The message is a bit weird, but this is what I was waiting for.

"Oh my, DoheeTunaSoYummy..."

'Fuck, what kind of nickname is that...'

"Uh... anyway, thank you so much for the 100,000 won donation!!! Thanks to your support, Dohee's odds of surviving the Tower have gone up!"

I rise from my chair and bow my head at a 90-degree angle in a slightly exaggerated reaction.

What’s the hardest part of climbing the Tower? While some get guild support, drink high-quality potions, share rare manuals, and train in the best facilities, I have to dirt nothing.

• lololol

• Oh, so it was a donation bait lolol

• Wow, her chest....

• Is that size even real?

• That nickname is sus.....

• What’s wrong with tuna?

• Damn, missed the virgin donation

• That nickname tho lol

• Those things are huge....

• Y’all are all staring at her chest

Then people start sending donations after realizing they’re open.

[User "GuroGuro" donated ₩200,000]

I owe you for yesterday. Here’s your jerk-off fee.

"Oh my, thank you so much for the 200,000 won... Eh? Wait a sec... what did you just say?"

Sure, money is great, but what's with that message...?

• lolololol

• Jerk-off fee, really

• Gotta pay up properly for that content~

[User "ska1190" donated ₩100,000]
I used (masturbated to) your stream three times last night. I’m an enlightened man now.

"W-Wait!!! Hold on!!!"

• lolololol

• ???: I don't mind being harassed; lol

• lololololol

• Instant karma lol

• Ah~ I said I don’t care~

• ???: Whether I get harassed or not, blah blah

• Feeling shy now, huh?

This is going sideways. Did I say something wrong?

It feels like the viewers misunderstood "I’ll endure it even if it happens" as "I’m fine with it happening."

[User "OguriDona" donated ₩20,000]
So we can just harass you freely as long as we donate, right?

"N-no... that’s not it! Why are you interpreting it however you want!!"

Gaaah!!!

• Not accepting donations? Don’t you wanna climb the Tower?

• Oh? Refusing Tower funds now?

• Dohee, every penny counts for Tower climbing...

• ???: Harass me all you want, just give me money.

• Wanna join an adult channel?

• These dudes rewriting history in real-time lol

"Wait! When did I ever say it's okay to get harassed!! I said I'd endure it if I had to!"

• Isn’t that the same thing?

• So just endure it lololol

• Get harassed and deal with it!!! Ugh yesss!

• Just hold it in~ lololol

• Just endure it!

• Being forced and holding back... oh my~

• Yeah yeah~ just endure it~

• These guys are insane lolol

These rebellious brats. You can’t talk sense into them.

Well, it’s fine. I was originally a guy anyway. No damage done. Do whatever you want.

"Sigh... I won't even bother talking. Go ahead, if you must. Minimum donation 50,000 won."

Fine, if you’ve got the cash, harass away~ I won’t even blink.

"Mmm~ sweet donation~ totally unfazed, hehe..."

​

After that, I got absolutely flooded with pervy donations for over an hour.

"Ugh... please stop. Please... I... ahhh..."

This is weird.

My head is heating up again, like yesterday. The pervy comments aimed at me keep playing in my head, and once I started imagining it actually happening, I began to feel strangely flustered and embarrassed.

There's a slight dampness between my legs and a weird tingling in my lower abdomen...

• Defeat confirmed lololol

• You think our bros are jokes? (Didn't donate a cent)

• We only harass girls

• ???: Totally unfazed~

• Look at her blushing lol

• No matter how much permission she gave, this ain’t it lolol

• Instant karma, seriously lololol

• Be honest, you soaked yourself, right?

• Where do these dudes even learn such filthy lines? So gross lolol

Honestly, I admit defeat. I underestimated these internet ghosts.

I thought it'd be just "You’re sexy" or "I'm horny," but they came at me with stuff like "slurping your baby-feeder" or "gushing semen into the baby respawn zone," or "your plump little pussy looks delicious," and so on... I can't even say the rest.

I probably lost all my female fans today.

"I'm sorry... I'm banning all harassment from now on. Not because I lost, but to respect any female viewers who might be watching..."

• Why though lol

• ???: Harassment means nothing to me

• Honestly, they kinda crossed the line. Other streams would sue lol

• Think there are any female viewers left? lololol

• Pulling the woman-viewer shield now?

• I still have 5 billion more harassments saved in Notepad

Estrogen.

Yeah, let’s blame estrogen. It’s all because of the female hormones. I definitely didn’t lose. Something about female hormones made me feel weird. Has to be.

'No way I’m a pervert who gets off on donation harassment, right?'

"Whew... harassment is now banned. But I’ll still allow compliments... of a certain kind."

• Woohoo~~~

• So as long as we don’t cross the line, we’re good?

• Does she even know what counts as a compliment lol

• She probably thinks it’s just a softer form of harassment...

• Your baby feeder looks soooo tasty

That last comment makes me feel a bit off.

"Guys, I never said sexual compliments were allowed in the chat. That’s for donations over 50,000 won only."

• ???

• Then what do we get to do?

• What is this, a bait-and-switch?

"You guys can only use sound effects like 'ooh yeah~'. I'll add it to the admin settings."

This time, I make sure to confirm and apply the admin settings.

No sexual compliments or harassment in chat.

No intense harassment via donations.

• lololol

• Ffs lolol

• Honestly that's fair.

• Ooh la la~

• Yeah, we’ll take it lolol

• Wahkyaphyaknongjjook Paaaang~~

• Take out the "nong"

• Ugh yesss yesss yesss

• Squelch squelch! Splurt splurt!!

"Okay. Just stick to those. Ah, and things like that 'splurt splurt' stuff that's clearly over the line, not allowed. Since it's your first time, I’ll just mute you."

• lololol

• Damn, riding the line is easy

• Can’t even ride the line? Get out smh

• Let’s try one each?

• You go first

I don't know if you can call this a communication stream, but somehow, I manage to keep going with these pervy viewers.

But this wasn’t what I planned for today.

• So when are you going to the 2nd floor?

Finally, the first constructive, productive question.

"Wow... you guys. A real, proper question at last. Honestly, I’m moved. I thought today would just be nonstop harassment, but knowing a sane viewer exists brings me peace."

The chat gets a bit fiery, but I just let it go.

Feels like I finally understand streaming a little better? I don’t have to react to every chat, and if things start to go off the rails, I can just moderate them.

'Kinda fun.'

Even now, tens of thousands of viewers are watching me with interest, and it feels like I’m halfway controlling their emotions. I get why most streamers want a big audience, even if the money isn't great.

Being mocked, teased, insulted... but still, having tens of thousands of people focusing solely on you triggers a dopamine rush.

"I’m not going to the 2nd floor right away. First, I need to use the donation money and government grants to raise my basic stats enough to pass."

The second floor theme is combat.

The difficulty is about the level where you should be able to take down an orc warrior with a weapon.

'What, just an orc?'

You might think that, but supposedly, it usually takes around five average humans with weapons to beat one orc warrior.

And that’s just the benchmark. In reality, you might get three unarmed orcs, or a bunch of weaker monsters like goblins or kobolds. The difficulty and monster types vary slightly.

Still, there’s a general standard, so most people raise their stats to at least that level before attempting the 2nd floor.

"So! Today is shopping day!!"

The content I originally planned for today.

It’s finally starting.

I adjust the stream to show my computer screen and log in to my online banking account.

[Tower Bank: Remaining balance ₩296,645,002]

• ???

• Where did that money come from?

• Were you rich?

• ?

I maxed out all possible loans I could get as an Awakened.

I plan to spend all of it today.